Saturday, 16 January 2016

Happy New Year!


Last year ended well and this year started well - in Canada! My boyfriend came with me for the first time to meet my family and see my home, and it was wonderful! We had just enough snow to do a bunch of winter activities - cross country skiing, snow fights, skating, tobogganing, snow angels...and fat tire biking!!! That was a new one for me, and it was awesome - partly because we went biking in the Rocky Mountains... The trip as a whole was fairly wonderful, it was so nice being home with the family, and it was just a really pleasant and relaxing trip. 


I'm looking forward to 2016. I wouldn't say 2015 was particularly bad, but it certainly wasn't the best year I've ever had, and 2016 is guaranteed to include some interesting adventures. For one thing, my current work contract expires at the end of June, so I'll for sure be starting something new - whether here in the UK or somewhere else, I have no idea, but new starts are always exciting/terrifying, so I'm looking forward to that! For another, I've given myself a general life direction this year, which is a good feeling. I struggled a lot with feeling motivated and satisfied in 2015, but I've recently realised that not only do I need to start moving in a different direction, I also need to stop worrying so much about feeling motivated and start being more disciplined. I don't like the idea of New Year's Resolutions (I inevitably fail around January 5), but I've decided to make a conscientious effort to become more disciplined in 2016. So far it's going fairly well, and I'm hoping that it gets easier as the year goes on!

So here's to 2016 and new adventures!






Thursday, 9 July 2015

Week 2 Update

The running trail on Saturday - the sunny days have continued!
I'm into the second week of 10k training and intermittent fasting, and I think overall it's going well. Today has been a fasting day, and I've got to admit, I'm struggling...all I want to do is eat a sandwich, but that's out of the question now as I've consumed all 500 calories and have none to spare! I think I maybe wouldn't be feeling quite so hungry if I hadn't run this morning as well, but it just happened that the fasting day coincided with a running day, so essentially today has been calorie-neutral!

I took my measurements and weight this morning (I only do this once a week because I don't want it to be my main focus, I just want to be able to track progress) and I have lost centimetres! 6 cm, to be precise, from my waist; 2 cm from my upper arms; 2.5 cm from my hips! So I am calling last week a success - I can tell the running is helping things significantly in terms of the measurements, and I'm really pleased. The weight is another issue entirely - I didn't lose anything since last week, and I know exactly why. Firstly, I eat normally on non-fasting days, and don't track a thing, which means that I probably eat enough to cancel out any positive effects of the fasting; secondly, I ate two pizzas last night, which I know contributed fully to the sad outcome of weighing time this morning :P

But this is a huge part of my problem - I often eat just because food is there, and I really need to learn self control and to recognise when I'm actually hungry. I knew, as I was finishing off the pizza, that I wasn't actually hungry, so that's progress, but I couldn't seem to stop myself from actually eating it. Hopefully after a few more successful fasting days I'll be better at the self control aspect of things...

So there we are! After last week I've changed my approach slightly, and I brought lunch in today so that I wouldn't get all moody and hungry today between the two bigger meals. I planned exactly what I was going to eat yesterday so that I wouldn't be wondering and searching for snacks throughout the day, and I've tried to keep myself busy so that I don't have the chance to get bored and start snacking. I also planned ahead and made tomato soup yesterday, which I knew would be low calorie but tasty for the end of the day (and also would require no prep, and therefore no chance for snacking on ingredients!!). The soup is essentially my vegetable soup recipe, and I've calculated it out to be about 112 calories for a 1.5 cup portion, which is plenty, even if you're fasting!!

The beginnings of my beekeepers quilt - aka, how I'm keeping myself busy :)
So that's the update for this week! I've got a really nice recipe for super tasty low-fat blueberry muffins coming up soon, but I'm just trying to sort out the calories in there so I can post that too (I'm getting disagreements based on which website I use, and the scientist side of me won't let me post anything until I know the right answer with confidence!!).




Wednesday, 1 July 2015

Challenges


I think I've written on here before about my general struggle to lose weight - ever since my early teens its been a bit of an ongoing battle for me. While I've finally reached a point where it isn't something I'm constantly beating myself up over, it is definitely something I am frequently aware of and wanting to change. I'm not Gigantor or anything, but I'm definitely not close to a healthy weight, and I know that the older I get the worse that's going to be, and the harder it will be to change. Also, I want to have kids one day and not get immediately worn out while chasing them around a park. I want to be able to run/bike/hike/surf/swim with others without wondering if I'm going to be able to go as far as my friends. And, vainly, I want to see a picture of myself without immediately noticing rolls and extra chins...

So there's my motivation. In my defense, I am already reasonably active. I love walking, swimming, cycling and hiking, and I've been a sporadic runner for a few years now. I'm just not particularly consistent or good at any of the above activities, which is why I tend to hesitate when someone suggests an active outing...I'm always aware of the fact that I might hold them back. 

My other problem is that I really love food. Anyone who has read any part of this blog will know that I love cooking, I love baking, and I love eating, and that's not likely to change (nor do I want it to). I've tried a number of diets and eating plans whilst trying to lose weight, and they all fail once I realise that to succeed I have to deny myself a particular food - something in my brain can't handle that. Once I realise that I'll only be able to eat ice cream once a month, all I want to do is eat ice cream every single day - which is crazy, because normally I probably do only eat ice cream once a month, so it wouldn't have really made a difference anyway!! Such is the craziness that is my brain!

Anyway, all of this is to say that I've tried many things and tried many times to shift this weight and to get fit. Sometimes it works a little bit, but usually it doesn't. So I'm trying something new, and hoping for the best, as this seems like a plan that will fit well with my current lifestyle and doesn't mean I can never eat nutella again (that is a deal-breaker for me). I'm trying out the 5:2 plan, and I thought that I'd maybe bolster my motivation by posting about my progress here.

The basic concept, for those unaware, is that 2 days a week I fast and restrict my food intake to 500 calories/day, but the other 5 days a week I can eat whatever I want (although staying within the recommended limit of 2000 calories/day). The 500 calorie limit doesn't get adjusted with exercise, unlike some plans, so I can't 'earn' more calories by working out or anything. But it does mean that if one day all I want to eat is a Snickers bar, I can eat the Snickers bar and feel zero guilt, and for me, that's huge!

So, here's what I've learned from my first day of fasting:

Hooray for ipods and sunny days - makes getting up early much easier!
1. The number of calories in things is crazy - I had no idea! For breakfast I had 1 cup of blueberries with 1/2 cup of semi-skimmed milk and that was 140 calories gone! I'm starting to realise how massively caloric my normal breakfast is, which sucks because I thought I was being healthy :P

2. I can't last from breakfast to dinner without anything in between. Maybe this will change after I get more used to fasting, but I was a moody, moody cow today at work, and I'm positive that it was down to the fact that my blood sugar was low.

3. Water is my friend. I drank so much water today in an attempt to trick myself into thinking I wasn't hungry. It mostly worked.

4. Olive oil is bad. Seriously!! 1 tbsp of olive oil has as many calories as two boiled eggs! No more oily salad dressings for me!

Today's calorie count: 540 (I'm blaming the olive oil!). Not perfect, but so close, and a million times better than it could have been! AND I even resisted the temptation to eat the tiramisu my lovely office mate brought in today, so I'm considering today a massive victory overall :)

So that's where I am with things. I'm going to try and post weekly about this, both the 5:2 diet and the running, in a desperate attempt to keep up my motivation! But I've got some new recipes and things to post about as well, so it won't all be this kind of thing - cinnamon buns and sourdough bread wait for no diet!!


Friday, 20 February 2015

Hello again!

It's been too long - I know! Every time I thought I'd post something it felt like there was just too much to say, but for some reason at this moment I feel it is acceptable to post only the briefest of summaries, so I shall take advantage of that feeling and post something quickly!

For those who don't know, shortly after my last post I was offered a post doc here in the UK, so I'm now working in Plymouth, and it's lovely!! Still by the sea, still at a university, still working with soil, and all is well with the world. I am happy :)

It's been a fantastic year - found a great flat here in Plymouth (I can see the sea from my kitchen window!), some really great trips to Vienna, Iceland and Cornwall, I did my first bit of proper lecturing (which was both terrifying and a lot of fun - until the assignments came in for marking, that is), and, of course, there's been a fair bit of baking. 

I've decided to give the sourdough starter another try, so I'll keep you posted on any by-products of that endeavor, but I'm also going to try and perfect macarons this year. A friend and I had a good go of it for Thanksgiving - I think we did alright!! The first couple batches were complete and utter disasters, but then these came along and we knew we'd done it. We must have looked crazy, staring into the oven for the entire bake, waiting for nice little macaron feet to appear...but appear they did! Once I've figured out exactly the recipe I like (I think the method itself is absolutely key here, as timings and the order of additions really seemed to make a difference to the outcome between batches) I'll post it, but for now, look at this happiness!!

Just so you can see the disasterous apple macarons...
The winners! Hazelnut macarons with maple buttercream filling!

The other great baking/cooking craze to sweep my kitchen is this - my very own, very excellent, waffle maker!! My rather super boyfriend (groan, I know, but please forgive the gushiness just this once) bought it for me for Christmas this year after hearing ONCE (in passing, I might add!) that I wanted a heart-shaped waffle iron, a) because I love waffles (who doesn't?!), and b) because all the women in my family own heart-shaped waffle irons (it's a Scandinavian thing), so it reminds me of a lot of great family times while I was growing up (See why I feel the gushiness is waranted in this instance?). I used the waffle iron over the weekend when I had some friends visiting (with my gorgeous goddaughter! Another exciting event from the past year!), and the cast iron seasoning is finally starting to kick in - no sticking at all this time! A great success indeed!

Sour cream waffles - note my Hudson Bay cookie tin! Go Canada!! :)

Whenever I've asked my either of my grandmothers for waffle recipes, the reply is along the lines of 'if I have X in the fridge I'll take some of that, but if not I'll use Y and Z', and 'you want a bit of X and some of Y, but I never measure...I'm not really sure how much I add. However much you want is fine'. I wish I had their skills - I need a recipe in front of me to follow... so for those of you who are like me, here's the closest thing to my grandmother's waffle 'recipe' I can give you. They're lovely and light, good warm or cold (served with jam if you're properly Norwegian), and taste best when heart-shaped (obviously). Enjoy!

Sour Cream Waffles
1 c. full fat milk
1 c. sour cream
2 eggs
3 tbsp unsalted butter, melted
1 tsp vanilla
2 tsp baking powder
1 1/2 c. plain flour
1/2 tsp cinammon (or 1/4 tsp cardamom) - optional

Combine wet ingredients together in a medium bowl. Stir together dry ingredients in a large bowl and make a well in the centre. Add the wet ingredients and mix until well combined - there will be some lumps, but it doesn't matter - they'll disappear during cooking.

I won't put instructions for the actual waffle making...I'm assuming your iron is different to mine (as mine is a cast iron stove-top one) so I won't pretend to guess on cooking times! 

Monday, 3 March 2014

Lavender Cupcakes with Lemon Buttercream Frosting

These are perhaps my all time favourite cupcakes - lavender and lemon work so very well together, but you could just as easily leave the frosting off and have a lavender muffin, if you'd prefer. The recipe is adapted from another Canadian blog, Patent in the Pantry, and was made with earl grey tea. But I am a lavender lover, and am always looking for a good recipe to use lavender in (also, I bought what appears to be a neverending bag of lavender on amazon for £5 and so I have to try and use it up).

Lavender Cupcakes
Makes approximately 18 regular cupcakes (or 12 regular and 12 mini)
 
1/2 c. unsalted butter, softened
1 c. caster sugar
2 eggs
1 1/2 c. plain flour
2 1/4 tsp. baking powder
3/4 tsp. salt
1/2 c. milk
1 tbsp. lavender (more for sprinkling over frosted cupcakes, if desired)

Preheat oven to 350F.

Combine lavender and milk in a small saucepan and heat on low for about 5 minutes, so the lavender can infuse the milk. Remove from heat and allow to cool to room temperature.

Cream the butter and sugar together until pale and fluffy. Add the eggs one at a time, combining between each addition.

In a separate bowl, combine the flour, baking powder and salt.

Add half of the dry ingredients to the butter mixture, and stir until just combined. Add the cooled lavender and milk and the remaining dry ingredients, and stir until just combined (the more you stir, the more dense your cupcakes will become, so if you want more of a muffin texture, stir more, but if you want light, fluffy cupcakes, try to stir as little as possible).

Fill muffin tins 3/4 full and bake at 350F for 20 to 25 minutes, until a toothpick comes out clean when inserted into the centre of a cupcake. Allow cupcakes to rest for a minute or two before removing from pan to a cooling rack. Let cupcakes cool completely before frosting them.

Lemon Buttercream Frosting
1/2 c. unsalted butter
2 c. icing sugar
zest and juice of one lemon

Cream butter and sugar together until smooth. Add lemon juice and zest and beat again, adding more icing sugar if necessary, to reach the desired consistency. I prefer my icing a bit stiff so it can be piped rather than runny, so I tend to add an extra tablespoon or two as I go along.


Friday, 28 February 2014

On Being Unemployed


An elephant that appeared next to our van!

The past six months have been absolutely jam packed with craziness - I went to South Africa in September to do chemistry and science workshops with school kids in Durban and Mafeking, and then I returned to Swansea and (finally) finished my thesis! I defended it at the end of November, submitted the final version in December and came back to Canada just in time for Christmas (literally - I arrived at 1:00 AM on Christmas Eve!). I also fit in Canadian/International Thanksgiving (4 years running now!), a trip up to Scotland to see some friends, and a trip to the Yorkshire Dales before coming home again. Since coming home I've been in full on 'family catch up' mode, with trips to Victoria, Saskatoon, Red Deer and Connecticut all crammed into a few weeks so that I could see everyone I've missed so much while I've been living in Wales. 

So while the last few months have been absolutely manic, they've also been amazing and lovely and satisfying, and I'm grateful for (almost) every moment.

I came home at Christmas to stay with my parents while looking for work, and if I'm completely honest, this was not a position I ever wanted to be in. Don't get me wrong - I love my parents, very much, but I stopped coming home for more than a 2 to 3 week visit after my second year of university, and I never really planned on having that change. I like my independence too much. But now I've been here for two months, the travelling family commitments have finished, and I'm left sitting at my desk and realising just how very unemployed I am.  

I thought I would enjoy this freedom - after...13 years of being a university student, surely I would enjoy this commitment-free time? No deadlines, no constant guilty feelings over work I could (should) be doing, no meetings...I expected it to be like a little holiday, catching up with friends and family and while I looked for jobs and maybe made got a job at Starbucks or something, to keep me financially afloat in the interim.

False. The thing is, most people are employed, which means they don't have the day to catch up and have coffee all the time. Obviously. And it's not easy to get a job at Starbucks if you're going to be travelling constantly - it makes the quickie job a wee bit pointless. And the job hunt, which I (very) naively thought would maybe take a month or two, has become probably one of the most discouraging, depressing times of my life.

Mini canyon near Rorke's Drift

I am generally a happy person; I don't get stressed, and I try to be cheerful and think positively about life. I've also been extremely lucky in that I haven't really had any major life setbacks or hardships to fight through to get me down. I have a great family, great friends, a fantastic boyfriend... I've worked hard to get to where I am, but I'm finding that it's just not enough - employers want experience as well as education, and I just don't have that. And the overwhelming guilt of research and homework has now been replaced by the desperation to find a job - any job - just so I don't end up with a massive gap on my CV. I cried when I got my first rejection letter, and even as it happened I realised how ridiculous I was being. Who gets a job in a week?! A month? There's bound to be rejection, and lots of it, and I was being ridiculous to think otherwise. 

Isle of Arran, Scotland

The worst part is feeling like a failure. Now I've failed things before - many times, actually - and I'm a firm believer that failure is necessary and makes us stronger. But this time it's just getting to me. I feel like everyone who knows me must be thinking that there's something wrong with me to not have found a job yet, and it drives me insane, even though everyone has been beyond understanding and encouraging about it all. I feel like I'm freeloading, leeching off my parents by still being here and not working. I want so much to find something, to prove that I can do something worthwhile, that all this effort and schooling wasn't pointless! But really I just feel lost, adrift in this massive world of opportunity without any sense of purpose, and no end in sight.
Limestone Pavements, Malham, Yorkshire
So this week I've changed things up in an effort to get out of this wallowing pity party I've been throwing myself. I started the week with a smoothie cleanse, recommended to me by a friend, and I lost 6 lbs! I signed up at the YMCA for the trial sessions and I've been running, just so I can make sure I'm being active in some way, every day. And I've decided to schedule my job searching - give myself time frames and mini-goals to make it all seem more achievable and less daunting and discouraging. This way, I am still looking for jobs, but I've also scheduled time to work on some papers, and on a distance course for proofreading and copy editing, which will hopefully keep my brain active. And I'm praying. Lots and lots, if I'm honest, that the right job comes along and that I don't miss it, and for patience, because I have never been the most patient of people when it comes to future plans, and I hate feeling like my future is just a giant question mark.
Brimham Rocks, Yorkshire

I'm not sure how that's going to work out yet, but I will say that so far I'm feeling happier than I have been since getting home, so hopefully that will continue, and hopefully a job will come up soon!

X

PS - you may have noticed that the blog has reverted back to 'eager feet' - after a brief identity crisis, I realised that eager feet is actually a far more fitting title, given my life and what I like to post here. So it's back to stay, along with some photos from my travels over the past few years. The only one that didn't fit in was this one, from my trip to Victoria. The west coast of Canada makes my heart happy - this photo was taken on a particularly happy day this month :)

En route to Qualicum Beach, British Columbia

Saturday, 10 August 2013

Adventures with Sourdough (I)

Sourdough has long been one of my absolute favourite breads (tied with dark rye, if you're interested). Give me a couple slices of sourdough, some cheese and a cup of coffee, and I am a very happy girl :) If forced to choose my last meal, it would probably be something along those lines (a bold statement, but one I stand by, nonetheless). So when I saw the sourdough recipe in my new favourite bread cookbook, Paul Hollywood's 'How to Bake', I knew I had to try it.

I've been wanting to experiment with bread starters for ages, but have always been put off because they seem like so much extra work, and rather time consuming. I'm not going to lie - they are a bit of extra work, and they are more time consuming, but definitely not enough to have warranted my prolonged hesitation. I've also long been wary of steaming my home oven, which bread bakers always suggest for the nice crusts you get on baguettes. For some inexplicable reason, I'm always waiting for things to explode in my face (even when I'm not in the kitchen - it made the chemistry bit of my PhD extra challenging...), and steaming my home oven has always seemed like a recipe for disaster.

Making the starter and using it in the Sourdough Baguette recipe that follows was a really great learning experience - it was just difficult/fiddly enough to be challenging without being stressful, and I felt the finished product was supposed to be rustic enough looking to be forgiving of little handling failings. All in all, it's definitely given me the confidence to bake more with starters and to steam bread, which is what I really wanted out of this (as well as a rather amazing sourdough, which this also, fortunately, provided).

*This is a multi-day process, so give yourself a week(ish) from creating your starter to baking the bread at the end. None of the steps in themselves are particularly time consuming, it's just lots of waiting, so don't be put off by the time frame!

Day 1
Sourdough Starter
1 kg strong white bread flour
360 mL lukewarm water
1 apple, cored and grated
(make sure your apple's organic/clean - you don't want any craziness in your bread!)

Day 1: Mix 500 g flour, water and the grated apple together very well in a bowl. Store in an airtight container, marking the height of the mixture on the outside (so you can monitor its growth). Cover in a tea-towel and leave in a cupboard for 3 days.



Day 4: Your starter should have grown if not twice, then at least a third bigger, and have some great fermenty bubbles at the top. It might stink (the fermenting apple smell is initially rather awful, but I promise it goes away by the time you use the starter). It will also be very runny, almost like a pancake batter consistency at this point. Give the mix a stir, and then discard half of it (I know it hurts to do this - it took me a while to come to terms with it too). Feed the mix by adding 250 g strong white bread flour, 170 mL water and mix well. Seal and cover again, leaving it in the cupboard for another 2 days.

Day 3
Day 4


 Day 6: Your starter should have grown again - if it doesn't look any higher than the mark level, check the sides for evidence of smearing dough, as it could have already risen and sunk back. Give the mix another stir (again, forgetting about the smell!) and discard half of it. Add another 250 g strong white bread flour, 170 mL tepid water and mix well. Seal and cover again, leaving it in the cupboard for 1 day.

Day 6

Day 7: This time, when you open the container, your starter should smell more like apple cider. If you don't see bubbles or evidence of rising and sinking, your starter may not be fully mature yet. Add some more flour and water to return it to a thick pancake batter consistency, mix it well and let sit, covered, for another 24 hours. If there are bubbles, or evidence of rising/sinking along the sides, your starter is ready to use! Congratulations!

Day 7
Day 7 - ready to use!


From this point on, you can store the starter in the fridge, as that slows the growth and you don't have to feed it as much. If you have friends interested in sourdoughs, you can give them some of the starter now too, as it's mature and ready to use. Just keep in mind that you'll need between 250 - 500 g starter for many recipes, so make sure you keep enough in there. Also, bring the starter out of the fridge about 24 hours (ish) before you plan to use it so that it can come completely to room temperature prior to use.

Sourdough Baguettes (makes 3)
250 g sourdough starter
375 g strong white bread flour (plus more for dusting)
175 - 225 mL lukewarm water
7 g salt
olive oil for kneading

1. Combine starter, flour and water in a large bowl, mixing until a sticky dough has formed and pulled in all the flour from the sides of the bowl.




2. Tip the dough out onto an oiled surface and knead for about 10 minutes, until the dough is smooth and elastic. Lightly oil the bowl, return the dough to it and turn to coat. Cover with plastic wrap and leave to sit at room temperature for 5 hours, or until doubled in size.


3. Tip the dough onto a lightly floured surface and gently fold in half repeatedly, until the air is gone from the mix. Divide into 3 equal portions (each will be about 300 g), and gently shape each into sausages about 20 - 30 cm long. *This is a runny dough, so I suggest you flour your hands before handling it, and don't press too hard - the dough doesn't bounce back as quickly as, say, a whole wheat dough.



4. Cover a large cutting board/baking sheet with a tea towel and apply lots of flour to the towel. Transfer the baguette to the covered board (don't worry too much if it doesn't keep it's shape - you can fix it on the board), then place the board into a large plastic bag (I used a clear recycling bag). Fill the bag with air and then clip/seal it to keep the air in. Then let the bread prove for 12 hours, or until doubled in size.



5. Fill and boil a kettle and preheat your oven to 210C (410F), with a rack in the middle and a large empty roasting tray on the bottom. While the oven's heating, transfer your baguette to a baking sheet covered in parchment paper.

I found this part rather tricky, to be honest, as evidenced in my first photo here - the dough is runny and difficult to handle without pulling and causing it to lose its shape entirely. So what I ended up doing for baguettes 2 and 3 was gently rolling the sides in, and then roll the dough right off the board onto the baking tray. By first rolling the sides in, I was able to a) minimize the exposed unfloured/sticky surface area, b) reshape the baguette into a tighter roll, and c) get flour all over myself and the counter. It was a win-win, really!



6. Just before you put the tray in the oven, fill the roasting pan about 2/3 full with hot water. Make three large diagonal cuts along the top of the baguette, and then put the tray in and bake for 20 - 25 minutes.

*After 5 - 10 minutes, check that the water hasn't evaporated completely from the pan. If it has (only after 5 minutes, don't open the oven door in the first 5 minutes), carefully open the oven (it's full of steam, so don't burn yourself!) and fill the pan 2/3 full again. Keep an eye on the water level throughout the bake, filling when necessary.

And that's it! I know it seems fiddly and time consuming, but I promise that it's worth it - the crust on this bread was exactly, exactly right, and the sourdough taste was perfect. Thank you Paul!!